I changed my blog skin today. FINALLY
After looking for so long, i found this skin that suits my taste perfectly. Whether it is the colour, the words, the format or the image. The best thing I like about it is that it has a vintage look, brings me back to the era that I would always dream of going back.

I believe I have told a number of friends that i will love to live in the 60's. Its because I think that people are simpler in the past and the fashion style really exaggerating. After living for 18 years and 7 months plus, I find myself gradually losing faith in Mankind. I used to believe that no matter how bad some of the 'bad' guys may be, there will always be kindred spirits. However, I get disappointed over and over again when people around me show me their ugly side. Gradually I am afraid to know anybody I get along well with deep, for fear that I may be disappointed when I see their ugly side. It is not easy to be hurt by acquaintance but painful to be hurt by close friends.

My mum used to tell me, 君子之交淡如水, 做朋友点到为止。Yet I never thought it make sense in the past. I believe strongly that when you give all you can in any relationship, you will get as much from your friends. This led me to do a lot of seemingly foolish but touching antics for my friends. However, as time go by, I found some people using me to achieve their own purpose. I felt so angry and foolish. Then i will try to recall my primary school Principal's words, 施恩末望报，得恩千年记。It teaches people that we shouldn't ask for returns for our favours and to remember the kindness of others. To fully appreciate the essence of this phrase, it takes years and sometimes many life lessons

Yet, i can't trust people as easily as I used to. The ironic thing is that, if you never learn to trust, relationship can't be built up. Yet if there is no close relationship, how can we trust each other. 道理很多，说得容易，做到难。I have been confuse and perplex at all this complicating problems in life. How to love like you have never been hurt before? Its tough.