It has been 3 weeks since the start of my school semester and I am still feeling a bit lost at making new friends in class. ( Probably because I always stick to my old classmates) Not to mention I have been late for almost every 8.30 class.
Have been feeling quite down the past week. ( Now, I am feeling better, probably due to the busy-ness of tutorial and stuff)
I think I just miss my friends, miss the good old days where I don't have to bother whether I am going to get employed or not. Feeling a bit useless sometimes. "So what if you can study, if thats all you know, you are nv going to make it anywhere". I have been trying, but probably not hard enough. I love to try new stuff, make new friends like everyone else but its probably not in me. When I try too hard to, I feel like I am faking it. I don't know who I am, what I want and how to achieve my goal in 寻找幸福。

我像是没有依靠的浮萍，不知哪里是我停靠之处。

天黑黑 孙燕姿

吵闹任性时侯
我的外婆
总会唱歌哄我
夏天的午后
老老的歌安慰我
那首歌好像这样唱的
天黑黑 欲落雨
天黑黑 黑黑
离开小时候
有了自己的生活
新鲜的歌
新鲜的念头
任性和冲动
无法控制的时候
我忘记
还有这样的歌
天黑黑 欲落雨
天黑黑 黑黑
我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人
我以为
这就是我所追求的世界
然而横冲直撞被误解被骗
是否成人的世界背后
总有残缺
我走在
每天必须面对的分岔路
我怀念
过去单纯美好小幸福
爱总是让人哭
让人觉得不满足
天空很大却看不清楚
好孤独
天黑的时候
我又想起那首歌
突然期待
下起安静的雨
原来外婆的道理早就唱给我听
下起雨
也要勇敢前进....
我相信
一切都会平息
我现在
好想回家去
天黑黑欲落雨
天黑黑 黑黑