Last week was a nightmare for me. Didn't get to sleep more than 4 hours a day and had to sleep after 3am to finish all my projects.

This week is last of a nightmare but still a nightmare. The projects hasn't ended yet. There are still 1 Accounting Project, 2 Facility Management project and 2 Revenue Management Project all due in the next 2 weeks. On top of all these, I still have my Econs Society duties to handle and Open house activities. If you put it in a nice way, its call fulfilling, but in reality it is detrimental to your health in the Long Run. I don't understand how come the working adults can stand such hectic lifestyle with endless projects to handle. For me, I just like a simple life where I can sustain my less than average SOL and also have some time to relax and help others.

When people get busy, indulging in relaxing activities is a luxury. Even as I am typing this entry, I will ask myself, 'Should I be research on my accounting project company?', 'Should I be doing powerpoint for my Marina Mandarin site visit?', Should I be watching my Econs online lecture'.... Yup, you will feel guilty for allocating your time to task that doesn't add any benefit to your studies and cca. Speaking of allocation, it is all about Economics again, to have the MAX efficiency, I should study up till a certain level and stop. But apparently, I have not reach that level for all my modules yet. I am not sure why the government is talking about 5 day work week for corporates and neglecting that students are working 7 weeks a day too. Is it just Singapore students, business students or just ME?

Anyway, why did I type such a long entry when all I wanted to say in this post is totally unrelated? Must be the sleeping bug working on me again. All I wanted to write was '我觉得被骗,被遗忘,被利用' Its not the first time already,可是我就是太相信别人说的话,然后才发现别人只是随口说说,根本不把我当一回事. 还是我宁愿选择相信,也不愿接受别人不在乎的事实? 我还时常感到不安,或许小时后被同学欺负的阴影还存在, 很容易被朋友伤害.大家的脚步越来越不一致了,我想过几年会跟糟吧.

最近常常唱王菲的<红豆>, 虽然高音常常飙不上, 但还是很喜欢这首歌的意境

有时候 有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开 都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我 有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我 看细水长流