As a kid, I hardly get such comments from adults. I was well-behaved, rarely spoke and was an attentive students to begin with.

As an adult, been receiving more of such comments recently. That i should tone down, be more polite, take care of others before self, have lesser mood swing, so on and so forth. It hasn't gone to a point where I give up pleasing people altogether but I have been having some difficulty figuring how to conduct myself. Been told that I can get too forthright with my comments at times. So should I keep my opinions to myself in the future? Is what I am doing acceptable for another society but not here?

All along, I thought making people happy was the end point that directs my behaviour. There has been comments that I shouldn't try so hard to do so and people also said that it may be the cause of my unhappiness at times? Not sure about this myself, though its true that while spreading happiness and acting cheerful, I sometimes feel that things doesn't happen the other way round. Taking on unnecessary responsibility isn't appreciated by all --> Is that what makes me sad at times? Seriously speaking, I hardly think my mood is very much affected by this.

I am not going to say I am confuse and blame the world for it but I suppose I am really scared to talk to people now, for fear any mistakes will be made. Its like learning to be a person all over again and this time round, there are no room for mistakes as an adult.

Something I have to cope with is to be very cautious with my behaviour towards people I treat as good friends. To me, being friendly may mean that I forget to say 'thank you', 'please' or even forget that I need to be careful in taking care of their feelings as well. When I am happy with a friend, I tend to get too HIGH. Learning to deal with such issues are important to me at this stage because I value friends. Even if people can't accept who I am, I guess I don't want to lose them either. Its like I think in a certain way but portray myself in another manner.

难。Its so difficult to be a human and I am feeling it.