过了很久的不能开怀大笑的日子了
很多事情，我不想做， 做了又怎样？
很多日子，我不想过， 过了又怎样？


事实是什么， 我也不明白了。
只是觉得，过去那小孩吹泡泡般的幻想日子， 让我比较快乐。

今天为了找回一些人生的感觉, 听了几首旧歌
K 歌之王
白色婚礼
时光机

听歌时，会感觉到其实， 心， 她是会跳得。
只是热忱， 她燃烧的时间变得太短了。

我想感觉意志坚强， 带给人们快乐的心坚定。
有可能吗？

Work isn't scary. But its scary because I don't want more from it.
Going out with people isn't scary. But its scary cause I can't handle myself in a way that makes people understand me.

I don't know why I stop to feel I want to care and I am worried.
Why bother? Because I want to. But I stop feeling I could.

I am praying that if its me, then I need help to change me.

More afterthoughts from Philippines trip:
I love the days when I am away from city, together with the nature. I would close my eyes and breathe in the serenity of the moment. A getaway from all gadgets and a need to connect to anybody in the world. That is when the mind gets refreshed and I feel alive again :)