I sang in the bathroom while bathing and tears start to roll down my eyes. I must be such a fool. I don't feel unjust nor angry with you but it's just an understanding that things will never be and I would always be treated like an unimportant person. In my own world, I imagine that people should be treated with some dignity but of course it doesn't bother you since you should be too occupied with your own thoughts. I wouldn't even try to smile to you anymore because I don't want to force it on myself to pretend. Cry all I must because tears will give me strength like how we wish for rain to clear the haze. Tmr shall be a hazy day that we are one day closer to the moment where wind and rain will arrive with thunder accompaniment.